Rest In Peace

Today's quite an emotional day for me because there were 2 deaths in one day, 1 hospitalization case. I went for my first funeral in dunno how many years, wasn't allowed to go usually cuz of my poor health, but this job calls for it. The funeral was fine as it was a peaceful death related to old age ailments. What hit me badly was e death case of a resident whom I worked closely with. I even spoke to her daughter just last week, informing her of family day at our premises. Then boom, resident was hospitalized. Few days later she died. It was especially shocking as she was only in her fifties n I enjoyed talking to her each time. She was especially happy when I brought her to e karaoke room. She sang beautifully. As she was visually impaired, she had to memorize the lyrics of the song all by heart. Her passion for singing was always there, even when she started nursing a bad cough n could only sang two songs. I just didn't expect her cough to aggravate to pneumonia n claim her life away. I m thankful to have known her, to have given her some form of enjoyment during the last stage of her life. I m just sad at not being able to say goodbye to her. She just left us so suddenly. I couldn't go to mandai crematorium as I haf a new case to assess this afternoon at 3 pm. It was e exact same timing as her cremation. I just hope her daughter can cope with this well. Rest in peace... I m glad to haf met you, to bring joy to u even if it was short lived. I m sure you are in a better place now, rid of pain. My heart still feels heavy when I write this. It's as though someone close to u has passed on. Sigh. Life still goes on. You really sing well... Was expecting u to sing during family day, but u never made it out of e hospital. Sigh :(

Let's hope I can get less affected with more experience in this. My colleague took 1 year to feel desensitized, I m not sure how long I need.