A trying period

Thanks to all for their well wishes... This period is sure a low point for me. Been diagnosed with a left ovarian cyst. Not sure if it's benign or malignant. Currently on medication now to reduce the size, otherwise surgery would be the option. Since the cyst is pretty big, 5.8 x 7.08, i believe the scar should be quite big. Sigh. Not the right time to be vain now right? Pray hard that everything goes on smoothly such that surgery is not required. I am highly afraid to go under the knife, even under anaesthesia. Too much of a scaredy cat.
I have done whatever I can so far. Visited 2 Gps, 1 tcm, 1 more experienced GP (the current one), 1 medium, 2 temples and crying like mad for countless of times. Crying doesnt help much actually. It's just to relieve my frustrations. Now the more important thing is to stay positive and stop thinking too much. Even if I cant haf kids next time, I'll just adopt one instead... Must find a husband that doesnt want kids. hahha.
It's time to look for yingjia! Only she makes me laugh like mad amidst this trying period.